'' It goes hand in hand with the moment of reception is a dimension of personal translation'' - Candice Breitz
My usual post are focused about how a particular song or band has brought me to as close to bliss with a hint of sarcasm or whatever wit can come out this brain of mine.
However, today..is a different day. Today I write my truths, Today there will be a lesser hint of mockery and a bigger pinch of honesty. Today is a day where I write all the scattered thoughts within my head. Now, I usually wouldn't be so public about such things unless it follows a hilarious joke. But if you are reading this, then that means you already went through the effort on clicking on this link which means either you care enough to know what I do in my free time (so you might want to stay) or you were utterly bored refreshing your Facebook page (click the X button on the right corner as it might get boring for you).
But here goes...oh and ofcourse I wouldn't be writing unless I have a few songs following my fingers movements. On today's list:
1. Florence + The Machine - Heartlines (acoustic version)
2. John Mayer - Gravity
3. Wolfmother - Vagabond
4. Dry the river - weights & measures
Last but not least, the song that I knew but seemed to have rediscovered once more with greater love
M83- midnight city (trentemoller reemix)
The mix I have chosen makes for such a great setting, the feel of slowing down the song allows you to actually feel the words. understanding the emotions behind it longing for lost lights within the city.
(M83- Tivoli, Utrecht 2009)
Not to mention the soft spot I have for the lyrics as they take you in a trance if you only let it. For you see, I tend to have problem sleeping at times and since I live smackdab in the city, I have a great appreciation for what its written especially when certain thoughts creep on you when being awake at 4 in the morning, when the soft morning lights are trying to avoid the edges of the building.
Ok, but not to digress what I was set out to do. If you are reading this and you know a fraction of who I am then you already know that I live though my music, my thoughts and the idealistc views I have on what people should set out to do. I have always lived my life with the thoughts of inner strength in order to understand your surroundings.
I'm idealistic, wish bigger and greater things and above all believe in people more than sometimes I ever should. Emotions is what thrives me and finding the cracks between people's walls is what intrigues me. It's been 23 years and though the world wants to teach me otherwise, I still believe on how I see things. Problem is, the tree that I once planted in my head since I was little is slowly changing from season. The people around me have changed and I see more clearly now that the bubble I so fiercely fought against all my years might have more advantages.
Trying to conform however is not an option as I have always been who I am. I'm lacking plenty of things lately yet I seem to be fine. Is this the notion most people go through everyday? Think I liked it better when everything belonged in an odd place. The idea of understanding other people has become less appealing to me since I have seemed to struggle lately as to why people do the things they do. Mainly because at times there is no reason and there is no heart. True emotions get buried within layers of politically correct silence in order to look decent in the eye of passer-byers. This is where my lack of understanding comes into place as I have spent many hours trying to figure this out. Would you not rather just say it? For your sake and others?
I don't want any attention, I don't want to talk about it nor am I feeling emo. In fact I feel a weird type of happiness. I just felt like writing without any thesaurus on the side, with no complex ideas of how the world should change and defnitely no hidden agenda behind it. Only a few simple thoughts that are running through my head.
Forgive my honesty, as of late I feel that I have been surrounded by people that won't ever show true thoughts for one reason or another. So i'll do it, just to keep the balance.
If you are still here after this whole bible I just wrote, then you must be really bored or you are actually more interested and care as to what I have to say even more than I will probably know. In any case...it's your turn to share your odd day with me and I will be here to listen.
On a much cooler note...please do visit www.pitchfestival.nl. The festival look like DASHIT.
